Udoka Clendon is a first-year university student and a product of basketball systems that have produced professional players.

From very young, he’s been pushed relentlessly by his family on a troubling pursuit for an athletic scholarship. He is burdened by expectations and self-doubt. Udoka tries to reignite his passion for the game. Now, he’s been given a final opportunity at the city-wide tournament to rediscover his confidence and his sense of purpose—all of which he fears he has lost forever.

With the clarity and poetic style of a seasoned writer, and drawing on his own time as an elite sports prospect, Jawara Pedican shows the trials and traumas of becoming fixated on a dream of sports stardom.

Jawara Pedican is a former member of both the McGill University and University of Toronto men’s varsity basketball teams. With a wealth of memories from his playing days, he decided to offer young readers a semi-autobiographical account of his experiences and trials and tribulations as a collegiate athlete. He is a kinesiologist and more recently a medical editor for a life sciences marketing agency headquartered in Toronto. He lives in Alliston, Ontario.

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“A potent message about the mental toll of elite sports and the value of playing for love of the game will resonate with teens. Recommended for high school libraries.”

School Library Journal

"The therapy sessions counter the negativity Udoka feels about himself and speak to the importance of believing in and being your authentic self... a wonderful job of normalizing opening up and using counseling services, especially for boys and young men who often feel that they have to bottle up their emotions.

A sincere, inspiring look at dealing with and overcoming self-doubt..."

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